After feeling so shitty for so long m, I think I need to follow a friends advice…… 🤔
“STOP BEING SO HARD ON MYSELF”
I am my own worse critic. I end up feeling like the worst person in the world. Hopefully my situation will change but I cannot force that to happen so I shouldn’t let it bother me. As it is out of my control.
I have just handed in my final piece of work required for university. Now I need to tidy up everything else. House is a bit of a tip since returning from my halls.
Need to sort out everything I have accumulated since September. It may even help cheer me up at the moment. I hate feeling low so much. Its a horrible feeling!
Just need to keep myself busy, I’m even finding it hard to want to play the Xbox at the moment. Used to be able to disappear for weeks when playing games. Now it just feels a bit meh.
Im actually craving to be outdoors at the moment. I’ve got a race day on Monday and weekly revision lessons at castle combe which gets me out for a bit. It’s the times I’m stuck indoors I feel shitty. I have not even seen deadpool 2 yet due to uni stuff.
I’m gonna take some time over the summer to relax, find things to do. I’ve got a decent camera now so might try and do something with that. It’s just frustrating that I can not go for a long walk like I used to be able to.
I’ve got to stop feeling so defeated by pain. It’s not the easiest thing but it’s the only thing I can do otherwise my ailments are going to get the better of me.
Trying my best to think positively and post something that isn’t as miserable as my last posts